relationships

Looking at the title of this post I can only imagine what you think this may be about. I may surprise you, I may not but I have been known to "not be typical."

Through my travels with Axis and just in life I have seen many relationships. Some good, some not so good. But through each one I have learned something. The other night I was eating dinner with my boss'. They have been married for 20 years now and they direct the camp I work at. It was all the directors working the other night at dinner and when we sat down to eat there were gifts on the table from the group. The guys each got a light key chain and us girls got a notebook. My boss started opening up his key chain and started shining it in his wife's face. She grabbed one to retaliate and it ended up being a dud and not working well. Then she got another and they were going back and forth of a bit. He ended up with both at some point and that ended the battle. I sat there and laughed as they giggled and bantered back and forth. It was fun to experience. They do not have any kids and they are constantly together. They are best friends and they love going on adventures. I keep learning a lot from their relationship.

God has taught me a lot about relationships in the past few years. Whether it's friendships, relationships with my family, with guys, or watching many married couples in different stages of life. I have reshaped a lot of my ideals I had about relationships and what they 'should' look like. I have taken steps back and been stretched this past year.

The last few weeks I have had multiple people ask me if I am married. One in particular made me laugh. His wording was, "Have you husbanded up yet, Kait?" I have never been asked that before and not so much in a short amount of time. No, I am not "husbanded" up yet. I am not seeing anyone. One big thing I have learned over this past year is that I am not ready yet. That sounds so dumb. I keep thinking to myself that you can never really be ready for anything. Marriage is huge. If I ever get married it will be one of the biggest decisions in my life. Does that terrify me? Yes! Completely! But right now I am content in God shaping me into a godly woman.

I have no idea what the future holds for me. I am happy where I am. I hate the idea that women need a man in their lives to be complete. As cheesy as this may sound, I have one and He isn't going anywhere. I still wrestle with the understanding of how much He loves me, but I am learning. All I know is that if God decides to bring someone into my life I hope I am worthy of that man. I hope I grow in patience, grace, honor, and so many other things. God is preparing my heart. For what?? I have no clue. But I am strapping in for this ride.