New beginnings. So I have a new job with Axis. (which you should support me :D) It is a new year and I decided...why not just cut my hair off. [Ok as a disclaimer it was not in an act of anger or disapproving of how I look.]
But a day before New Years Eve my best friend and I went to the hair salon and I went short. Like really short. Think...pixie. Now this was a bit different for me. I have had long hair my entire life. I got a chance to donate the 12 in or so I cut off to an organization which was really great!
It's strange. Not to have long hair anymore and I am working on figuring out how to style it and work with it everyday. But it feel nice. There are moments I miss my long hair but I think its more of an appreciation of it. The reason I decided to make a post on this was because...well I thought it would be different and not many people know I cut it off. Last night at the host home I am staying at the wife asked if she could see a picture of me with long hair because she just sees me as short hair and it seems so natural. That was weird for me. I thought about it and Axis people only know me with my short hair. I have wanted to do this for a while and as soon as the ponytail was cut off it felt good. I know there are articles saying that 'short hair makes women feel more confident' and stuff like that. I do not think it comes with the short hair. I mean I did not feel this overwhelming sense of confidence when my hair was cut off. That idea is based solely around self-confidence. Which can be a good thing. I feel as women we are constantly trying to find our self-confidence and self-worth. Some people search their entire lives just looking for that one things they feel is missing.
In 1 Corinthians (The Message) it says:
"Forget about self-confidence; it’s useless. Cultivate God-confidence."
So many people look for confidence in themselves. But like that verse says, it's useless. We are humans; we fail and we fall. We fell in the beginning because we chose badly. I know I am very critical about myself and I am sure you are too. By finding confidence in God, we don't have to do that anymore. He loves us for who we are because He created us. We can fail a million, billion, or gazillion (which we will) times but no matter how much we fail...He will always love us. He will look at us just as we are and not see all the faults that we 'claim' to see in ourselves.
So I can cut off all my hair, change the way I dress, wear ridiculous high heels all the time. (which would be incredibly painful!) But He will still love me for me.
So maybe instead of just trying to find confidence in yourself, find it in God because I believe He is up there rooting for me to succeed even when I don't believe I can.
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